:: musings of a misfit ::: October 2004
Sunday, October 31, 2004
friendster glitch birthday
i didn't realize how many people check their birthday icons on friendster. Almost 10 people sent me birthday greetings today and i really couldn't figure out WHY since my birthday is is still over a week away. I thought it was either a joke or a friend mistakenly did a text-brigade...thank heavens JV called and when he joyously shouted Happy Birthday! i finally got a response to my "what the hell is going on?" complete with confused laughter. So JV explained my friendster account said my birthday was November 1. What the f...?!
so here i am, after charging down the stairs and have edited my profile. I think it's hilarious actually. But anyway...

YOU GUYS ARE SO SWEET! Thanks for all the greetings! Talk about being the first ones, huh? well, you guys beat everyone to the punch.

And here's a piece of trivia for you...i was really scheduled to come out of my mommy's tummy on November 1. But having the perenially-late-bone already in my body, i came out late on November 9. So you guys practically greeted me on my original birthday, as my mom thought.
posted by maldita @ 9:22 PM  
Saturday, October 30, 2004
crash and burn

well that's a funny thought. now where is this office...?
posted by maldita @ 9:35 AM  
R.I.P. MALDITA

Here lies the remains of
Maldita. As is the practice of the old eqyptians, we have buried her with the old blog templates and email addresses. Though she passed away at the ripe young age of 27, no one can ever say she did not live it up to the fullest...with all the high risks and returns.
And no violent reactions. unless you want her to rise up from the ashes as an angry devil.

I actually got the idea of changing my template from cris who also sports a new look. I had already changed my email addy, usernames, IDs etc., tho many of you friends have already known, (if you are a friend and have not received notice, please remind me!) to delete the term "maldita" from my character. I had tons of fun with the monicker but I honestly do not feel comfortable being associated with it as I used to. So just respect my decision. I'm currently in the works for the new website as well. wink wink.
posted by maldita @ 8:18 AM  
Friday, October 29, 2004
happy birthday to the sexy scorpios!
To Vince and Robbie...two majorly awesome guys.
Happy happy birthday! you know I owe you tons of big bearhugs!
posted by maldita @ 10:39 AM  
Thursday, October 28, 2004
congratulations are in order...
Here are the Final 10 of the Cinemalaya Independent Filmmaking Contest:
1) "Baryoke" by Ron Bryant
2) "Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros" by Mitchiko Yamamoto
3) "Isnatchers" by Michael Angelo Dagnalan and Jun Aves
4) "Angela -- The Bading Assasin, A Musical" by Francis Hechanova
5) "Big Time" by Mario Cornejo
6) "ICU Bed #7" by Rica Arevalo
7) "Room Boy" by Alfred Aloysius Adlawan
8) "Pepot Artista" by Clodualdo "Doy" del Mundo, Jr.
9) "Sarong Bangi (One Night)" by Emman dela Cruz
10 "Lasponggols" by Sigfreid Barros-Sanchez

I'm not sure but are all of them winners or these are just the final ten before they pick a winner? nevertheless, congrats to our friend Mario and to my former professor in film Doy del Mundo...
posted by maldita @ 11:24 AM  
Red Sox Won!
ST. LOUIS - They are now forever a part of New England lore, names such as Pokey Reese right up there with Paul Revere and Plymouth Rock. Because these Boston Red Sox — yes, the Boston Red Sox! — are World Series champions at long, long last. No more curse and no doubt about it.

Pedro Martinez paraded the trophy down the left-field line, hoisting it high over his head with both hands after Boston won it for the first time since 1918, beating the St. Louis Cardinals 3-0 Wednesday night for a four-game sweep.Thousands of Red Sox fans at Busch Stadium roared. Seeing was believing, but they still couldn't believe their eyes."We know people who are 90 years old who have just said: 'Just one championship before I die,'" Red Sox chairman Tom Werner said.

It was Boston's sixth championship, but the first after 86 years of frustration and futility, after two world wars, the Great Depression, men on the moon, and the rise and fall of the Soviet Union.

taken from Yahoo News
posted by maldita @ 3:42 AM  
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
sick in the head
hehe that was what my boss used to tell me everytime i called in sick. he said i've always been sick in the head. Well, now i'm definitely sick with the flu or something. pretty much a stuffy head and all my other senses. wierd parts of me ache like they've been punched and pounded. i just had hot soup today for lunch and dinner to clear my throat. not that i could even taste it much.

good thing i have my trusty Dayquil supply. I've had a steady number of caps because this is usually what i ask friends to bring home for me from the US. I bought my refill on my last trip so now it's being put to good use. you're supposed to take two caps at a time but my bod can only take one. so i spent the afternoon hugging my pillow...listening to some Mum and Sigur Ros while the meds took effect. See its so strong that i tend to get a bit shaky, numb and tingly. (what is that called again? meditative state?) I felt like i was in a spa or something in complete relaxation. But i still have a hard time breathing.

Noticed most of us smokers are suffering from these symptoms. best take lots of vitamin C k? take care all.

oh and check out malikot blog for a list of parties this Halloween Weekend!
posted by maldita @ 5:13 AM  
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
only one knows...
Make Me A Mix Tape by The Promise Ring
(Electric Pink [ep])

You remind me that I'm never going to be twenty-two
listening to the alarm waking up south of north avenue
my skin is going to wonder what I'm doing now.
So write me a letter,
tell me where you are
how to get there
and how long that it takes to tape me some songs.
Make me a mixtape
something old and something new
something I said or that we did
that reminds me of you make me a mixtape that makes me yours.
Don't leave out Husker Du.
Put something on that The Cars did in 1982.
It makes me yours.

I still have your "mixtape" from last christmas...
thanks for this song.
posted by maldita @ 10:56 AM  
coffee shareholder

You are French-press coffee. You are full of body and sensuality, and you love to be sipped and savored at leisure... though you can get cold rather quickly.
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posted by maldita @ 12:36 AM  
Sunday, October 24, 2004
daily rant.
fuck.feel like shit.why do i bother.
posted by maldita @ 12:56 PM  
Blankets
The book at the top of my Recommended list is almost sold out. About a week ago I saw more than ten copies in the shelves of Fully Booked. Today there were only three copies left. Not even a price-increase was enough to stop people from buying this delectable graphic novel.

I am now a big fan of Craig Thompson who I suspect is writing from personal experience up to the most sincerest of details. I checked the Top Shelf website and even at the publishers it is sold out. At $75 tag price, this is really worth the FB price.
posted by maldita @ 11:24 AM  
fantastic friend frances

Nothing fills me with calm and light than an afternoon with my friend Frances. She has been my closest and dearest friend for most of my decadent life. Her own simpler views on life and happiness are a breath of endearment for what we call integrity. She remains true to herself without the need to conform to the popular for a mere acceptance from the majority. But still, it is her very persona and values that makes her so likeable. I admire her acceptance of things and sincerity in expressing her own opinions, be it similar to yours or not. Someone asked me, of my intense fire and unpredictable anger, if there was anyone I have never gotten mad at. Yes, I answered. That would be Frances. I still find it astonishing that after all these years we’ve been friends, I recurrently learn something new from her. I admire her openness, sensitivity and acceptance. She never once projected us to be similar in taste which is perhaps why our short coffee breaks or phone conversations are enjoyable. Her views are poles apart from mine and reveal a wider perspective on things.

Cheers to true friends!

posted by maldita @ 5:19 AM  
Thursday, October 21, 2004
history or my-story?
Have you ever noticed how much people emulate others? We’re familiar with how we idolize or admire others and try to adapt as if we could share in the same spotlight within the conscious picture. But try to look into the pieces that make up your life. Are you interested in poetry? Certain types of books? Movies? Then try to trace back – when and why? My guess is it was probably some partner or friend that enhanced that fascination you call your own. So what is truly our passions and not some feeble attempt to develop a connection with someone we love?

This has been my introspective goal the past few months. Sure, I agree that you need to try several things to find out what we truly want and like. Gain perspective then make our own choice. But I’ve encountered so many people who just latch on to another’s fancy, blinded by their attraction. I am guilty of that too. It is most likely the reason why my dad calls me a jill of all trades, master of none. I can trace so many of my facets to a past boyfriend.

My imood setting has been set at FREE for a while now. Why? Because I am now at the path of least resistance, where I have no influences. No microscopic attractions. As marc said, time to live in the here and now. I had dinner and drinks with an old friend last week. We reminisced at how long we’ve actually known each other – six years. And yet he really didn’t know me. He saw only that I could hold a drink and my own in a parade of strangers. My degrees of conversation could span from the shallow to serious with a flick of an lighter. But he was not aware of my domestic capabilities or my philanthropic aspirations. Some friends even perceive me to be the career-driven-woman-of-the-world. Without any idea that I thoroughly enjoy making hospital corners when I fix my bed, cook dinner, or color-coding my files and documents.

So far I’ve only identified a few activities that shall remain from my development over the past twenty-seven years. None have been affected by anyone in my past. Here are a few of those things that you probably didn’t know about me.

1. Cooking – the first thing I ever learned to do at age seven was how to cook a fried egg. Since then I’ve baked cookies and cakes, cooked five-course dinners and slaved over the chopping board for the ones I love.
2. Art – With a medium barrage of pencil, charcoal, pastel, oil, watercolor, pen&ink and now the ever-popular software instruments, I’ve only created works as gifts and gestures of gratitude. I don’t vie to have another exhibit anymore because the price of my illustrations and designs are within the personal reasons behind each one.
3. Sewing – When I was in high school, I didn’t have enough allowance to buy clothes for parties. So what did I do? I made my own clothes. My mom surrendered the huge Singer to my room and I cut out patterns for various beaded blouses and laced-up tops. There was one time a guy called me to ask if he could pick me up early and I said I was still hemming my skirt. I got 2 minutes of shocked silence.
4. Gardening – I want a rose garden. Pots and bushes filled with flowers that bloom a yellow rose every few weeks. I once trekked up to Tagaytay to the flower farms and filled the back of a pick-up truck with these. Then I went to Sucat to buy a sack of soil to replant the seedlings as they grew. I sat in the garden clipping the leaves and picking out bugs. They flourished for a few months until the summer sun broiled them to oblivion. I still want that garden.
5. Community – My drive to succeed and work hard to support myself is only the strategy. The objective is to make enough to provide for others who need it more. If there’s one thing I cannot resist, it’s the old woman knocking on my car window. I think that the aged are the most ignored, and the ones who ask for the least. They aren’t as adorable as the babies crying in the orphanage who still have a chance. And when you think about it, all they want is someone to talk to.

Just thought I’d share that.
posted by maldita @ 10:10 AM  
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
well what do you know...

they DO look alike!

so if you can't find a reason to vote for Kerry, why not because of the fact that he looks just like the US national bird? how patriotic!
thanks to jv for the idea...
and chris heinz looks yummy in this shot! hehe.
posted by maldita @ 8:20 PM  
Sunday, October 17, 2004
forgive and forget
i wish i could make amends.
there's too much hate in this world as it is.

Ang dating masaya
Ngayo'y panay problema
Bumabalot sa mundo
Bakit ganito...
Ang pag-ibig, ganyan talaga
Ako'y nilamon ng pag-ibig
Ganyan talaga, masaya
- "Masaya" by Bamboo
posted by maldita @ 10:55 AM  
Saturday, October 16, 2004
sustainable invisibility
posted by maldita @ 8:21 AM  
Thursday, October 14, 2004
you love you lose
where is the comic conference when you need one? I remember there was one last year around this time in the parking grounds of Rockwell. I even saw Lyndon dressed as something. whatever. it was fun.

Just have three bullet points today:
* I want to buy Flight
* I just bought and finished A Complete Lowlife by Ed Brubaker
and Of Love and Other Demons by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
* read Murakami's short story "On Seeing the 100% Perfect Girl One Beautiful April Morning"...beautiful. it's a love story that's like every other and yet not like all the rest. yes, i contradicted myself. read it.



posted by maldita @ 6:24 AM  
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
The girl inside
ironic since i used to despise the word "indie" used loosely by many. Click on the pic! it's right on the money baby! cultural literacy with a dollop of media consumption.



It's no good pretending that any relationship has a future if your record collections disagree violently or if your favorite films wouldn't even speak to each other if they met at a party. -- Nick Hornby, High Fidelity
posted by maldita @ 12:20 AM  
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
They left seeds that will grow.
Apart from the deaths of well-known American celebrities, Rodney Dangerfield and Christopher Reeve...another great man passes away.



The big daddy of deconstruction, Jacques Derrida dies at 74. His philosophy elaborates the means of discovering layers of meanings in the way text is put together. I first discovered him and his teaching as a literature major in dlsu. Little did i know this practice would strengthen the analytical skills needed to strategize for marketing.

posted by maldita @ 11:22 PM  
Monday, October 11, 2004
i love Rooney!

notice my penchant for men with beautiful long hair. damn.
posted by maldita @ 11:05 AM  
Which beatnik am i?
Which beatnik are you?
You are Allen Ginsberg

The "Which Beatnik Are You?" test was created by . Take the test here!
posted by maldita @ 10:48 AM  
beat baby
i was skimming through the community I started in orkut called beatnik. One guy posted a topic asking what is a beatnik today? and there were some great replies:

Being a beat in the world today means being strong enough to figure out who you are and stand up for what you believe is right while working to rid the world of injustices, however it is that you work to that end... be it writing, singing, protesting or meditation, just don't hide in the dark and nurse your insecurities to the point that they become the chains that hold you immobile. (from Roane)

I would agree with Margie, most. Beat of your own drum. finding that internal rhythm and going with it. (anonymous)

my point of view excluded the time, its independent, its inside of all great hearts... intense perception of the your own feelings. (from Best)

posted by maldita @ 10:15 AM  
Saturday, October 09, 2004
sometimes i wonder
who the hell is real and who are just faking friendship?
posted by maldita @ 10:36 AM  
after the quake
last night the girls decided to join my movie night to watch Bowling for Columbine on AXN. Just as we were transfixed on the scene of the security cameras that caught the shooting massacre...the ground shook. I thought maybe my eyes were refocusing but then the blinds started shaking and we all turned to each other in fear. I looked around with a bit of relief that my living room had a number of beams we could hide under in case the force increased. It had a 6.4 intensity and within a few hours I had several text messages from concerned friends.

Glad I decided to stay home. I also heard that a lot of people stormed out of the bars in panic. Intuition strikes again.

posted by maldita @ 10:05 AM  
Thursday, October 07, 2004
damn good.
Fully Booked accepted my review! They'll be using it in the next newsletter issue and so i'm now putting together my bio for it. I asked my good friend Marc to write something up and I thought it was immensely entertaining, that I have to share it with all of you:

Margie's just in from San Fran where she was busy scratching an itch and after several (mis)adventures has since learned to live in the here and now.

Dreams of one day becoming the glue that will keep the band together while at the same time layin' down a phat beat on her bass.

She grew up on a diet of 80's cartoons, sitcoms and music which filter their merry way into her blog.

If you've got quick eyes, you'll see her tearing up the metro flashing her new driver's license,quizzicaly saying to herself, "Red? Didn't look red."

Other than that, she may be found overdosing on caffeine and nicotine, both of which make it possible for her to function in the world with style and panache.

You only feel what she wants you to feel and in that regard, I say to you this, trust only what you see,see only what you feel, feel only what you love.


----dude, feel free to edit as you wish, although I
really like the last stanza, she's just as flawed as
anyone, 'cept when you get to know her, you only
remember the good parts. That's what I take from that
last stanza I think it rocks. but your call. I also
don't know whether you want to mention that you were
in san fran recently, so it's up to you how you wanna
play it. There are 6 stanza's in all, so play with it!

Cheers! - Marc
posted by maldita @ 10:00 PM  
happy birthday to meeee...not yet.


this year i don't think i'll be celebrating my birthday. Last year's four-day celebration was good enough for my memories. So now maybe i'll just have a yumyum dinner with my family. Simple.
posted by maldita @ 8:46 PM  
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
this is an egotistical entry.

Just found out that my blog made it to the semi-finals in the Philippine Blog Awards. I am clueless as to the evaluation process but i somehow doubt that I fit into any of the awards: Philippine Blog Website of the Year,Filipino Blogger of the Year or Most Informative Blog Site. Aside from mine, I only recognized Denise as one of the semi-finalists.

But before you can say that's cool...I'm only among 142 semi-finalist entries. heehee. But hey, we started at 365.

posted by maldita @ 8:55 PM  
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
sick spam
has anyone noticed that there's more spam in yahoo mailboxes nowadays? some don't even get directed to my bulk folder anymore, they find their way to my inbox. What's more, I get these perverted ones that don't even know that "Margie" is a girl's name dammit! I get stupid things in the subject line like: Malditamargie, grow your penis larger! Aaaargh! stop the spam! i hate how they clog up my mail. even with 100MB now, yahoo needs to figure out how to filter this better. Like if I classify emails as spam, instead of directing to the damn bulk folder, why don't you just discontinue/block or report these addresses?
posted by maldita @ 10:55 PM  
owww.
Cris called me a wierdo. why? because in the past four days I have hit my head twice in the same place. Didn't i call myself a clutz a week ago? well, i think i outdid myself yet again. Last saturday I was in Vbar without much alcohol in me (well it could also be because that place was so unamusing) mind you, but still had to take a leak anyway. When i reached down to flush the toilet - BLAM! there was a glass shelf on the wall behind it and i hit my left forehead. Thank God it has not turned purple and i don't yet resemble an abstract quasimodo.

Then yesterday as I walked up the stairs of Rockwell Mall, I think i underestimated the distance to the door and just slammed into it. BLAM! again. But this time there was a resounding OW! that came out of my own mouth accompanied by about five women's voices screaming ow! from behind me. I guess they saw me run into the door at the nick of time. I can't even begin to imagine - as I bent my head down in shame when i entered the door - what the security guards on the other side had seen. My face squished on that glass for a split second. Ugh!

What I cannot understand is it's not alcohol, it's not even lack of sleep because it happens when i am wide awake...friends have suggested vertigo, temporary blindness, attention deficit disorder...or maybe just temporary insanity. har har.

If you run into me in the near future, please do not make the mistake of calling my attention as i walk up a flight of stairs or am near a glass door. I dread to think of having another head bump or the possibility of being sent to the hospital.
posted by maldita @ 2:26 AM  
Friday, October 01, 2004
Bush vs. Kerry
I watched the 2004 Presidential debate on CNN today. Bush kept repeating the same statement - that Kerry cannot change positions. In other words, he cannot pull out of the war in Iraq because the soldiers need stability to keep their morale strong? I don't know where to begin to describe what is wrong with that thought. And no matter what Kerry said to question the war in Iraq, Bush just kept repeating the same statements - without any answers. He just lacks direction....was he even listening?

Then he (Bush) goes on to say that "all lives are important". Well, more than 1,000 U.S. soldiers have died and about 10,000 killed in Iraq.

But on the other hand, I will also criticize Kerry for his articulation and choice of words. He doesn't speak with simple, short sentences. This tends to confuse the listener/watcher/voter. Bush seems to be better at this. And Kerry dropped so many names that I completely zoned out for a moment.

I think the debate is more focused on a Bin Laden Vs. Hussein issue when there are more problems that Americans continously face. Have they forgotten all this?
posted by maldita @ 1:46 AM  
 
 

she had eyes like two turntables mix(h)er in between my dreams and reality blend in ancient themes the bas(e)is of isis cross-faded to ankh the beat drops like a cliff over looking my heart - Saul Williams


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