 |
| Sunday, May 29, 2005 |
| it's best to avoid any pretense of emotion |
i forgot how rain affected me. Last year, at this same time I was enjoying California sun and icy air. Surprisingly welcoming considering my unfamiliarity. So its been over two years since this annual downpour left me in solitary desire and intent. I'm left with no more excuses, maybe a more volatile personality and lack of direction. Displacement still wenched in my heart - very cold and uninviting.
I can somehow relate to this stupid enormous bug that's been whacking it's head on my ceiling. trapped by both the call of the light and it's own stupidity - not seeing the open door i've left wide open. But even that seems like an easier choice to make, if only i'd been born a bug.
I've got a busy week ahead...lots of paperwork, legwork, not to mention debbie's birthday party and sin city opening in theaters. if it were up to me, i'd take a week off from everything and everyone. just to watch old black and white films, finish reading my novels and organize my files. Having been stuck at home due to the flu this past weekend was just what i needed though. I got to relax and laugh with Erik regurgitating cartoons and other laugh lines. Oh and he lent me more graphic novels to consume while stuck in bed - Add Top 10 to my list of recommendations.
Gaaad. I miss having passion...for anything! |
posted by maldita @ 8:55 AM
 |
|
|
|
| Wednesday, May 11, 2005 |
| @#$% |
can you believe i'm still at the office? at least i'm about to leave already.
let's see...started the day by visiting counters in ermita and harrison plaza. then drove to 6750 to park my car (bec. that's where i knew i'd end up) then walked to shoemart makati, landmark, then took the ever-so-intensely-hot overpass to greenbelt to check on new counters in pcx and jo then walked back to glorietta counter then end up in MBH at 6750 to help conduct the workshop with ten girls. this ended at 8pm upon which i drove back here to the office and am just about to leave after getting some paperwork done. Note: not ALL my work is done, just some.
I'm exhausted. and i'm still not satisfied. or convinced that i'm doing a good job. it sucks to be me sometimes. |
| posted by maldita @ 8:29 AM
|
|
|
|
| Monday, May 09, 2005 |
| an inquiry and more interests... |
Horoscope Overview: If anyone is familiar with intimacy, it's you -- in all its faces. At the moment, you're after the intellectual kind, and anyone who tries to snow you had better be ready to think again.
Top Singles of the Week
1: The White Stripes "Blue Orchid" (Third Man/XL/V2)
2: Spoon "I Turn My Camera On" (Merge)
3: Coldplay "Speed Of Sound" (Capitol)
4: The Mountain Goats "This Year" (4AD/Beggars Group)
5: Beck "E-Pro" (Interscope)
6: Hot Hot Heat "Goodnight Goodnight" (Warner Bros.)
7: Bruce Springsteen "Devils & Dust" (Columbia)
8: Aimee Mann "Going Through The Motions" (Super Ego)
9: Mike Doughty "Looking At The World From The Bottom Of A Well" (ATO)
10: Beck "Scarecrow" (Interscope)
11: Eels "Trouble With Dreams" (Vagrant)
12: Gorillaz "Feel Good Inc." (Virgin)
13: Spoon "Sister Jack" (Merge)
14: Ryan Adams & The Cardinals "Let It Ride" (Lost Highway)
15: Josh Rouse "It's The Nighttime" (Rykodisc)
16: Thievery Corporation "The Heart's A Lonely Hunter (w/ David Byrne)" (Eighteenth Street Lounge)
17: Feist "Mushaboom" (Cherry Tree/Interscope)
18: Ben Lee "Catch My Disease" (New West)
19: The Cloud Room "Hey Now Now" (Gigantic)
20: New Order "Krafty" (Warner Bros.)
I just finished reading Fables: The Mean Seasons and it left me breathless. So good. Unbelievably creative. As with all of Bill Willingham's other Fables novels - you can tell that there was immense preparation and as well as talent to be able to twist fairy tale characters and create new, continuously evolving personas. i can't wait for the next one. It deserves an Eisner Award!
Next attractions...
May 19 Star Wars Revenge of the Sith
last week of May - SIN CITY!!! |
| posted by maldita @ 8:16 AM
|
|
|
|
| Thursday, May 05, 2005 |
| 21 things |
Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds? Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity
but know that it alone does not equate wisdom?
Do you see everything as an illusion? But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware?
And don't believe in capital punishment?
Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing
that loving someone can actually feel like freedom?
are you funny? self-deprecating? like adventure? and have many formed opinions?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover. Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover
I'm in no hurry I could wait forever. I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
There are no worries and certainly no pressure
in the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow
Are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week?
Up for being experimental? are you athletic?
Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? are you not addicted?
...curious and communicative...
- 21 things i want from a lover by Alanis Morissette
I'm not really keen on the song itself but i like the lyrics. My dad asked me over lunch what were my five non-negotiables in a partner. I found values to be a solid one, followed by loyalty and direction. The next three were kind of difficult to determine because they keep changing. i used to like someone who could make me laugh because that means he would keep it interesting. But then, so could intellect or wit. Or artistic fascination. A couple of friends have accused (or applauded) me for being very picky. true true. but i guess i've gotten enough perspective to know what will work and what won't with my quirks and nuances and psychotic nature. |
| posted by maldita @ 12:00 PM
|
|
|
|
|
| |
|
|
