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| Tuesday, August 30, 2005 |
| learn to fly. |
sometimes you're in such a great place that you forget to look around. there can be good ruts and bad ruts. it's easier to spot the bad ones, it makes you change almost immediately. as soon as the tears set in. but we also get caught up in the ones that make us flutter around. but never go anywhere. where are we supposed to go anyway?
i had a good cry and a good talk with marc the other day. and he said he likes the ME version 2.0 that seems to have risen from the developers depths at the onset of this year. sometimes i long for ME version 1.0 who was too cold and flicked off every thing as if they had no significance in my life. not this one, anyway. and i made a million mistakes that i continue to pay for to this day. i hurt so many people. i belittled much. i thought it made me insusceptible to pain.
but version 2.0 now seems more like the beta version. the one who may be more sensitive but also does not take anything for granted. i get hurt more but nothing and no one is a passing fancy. its going back to the roots of why i wanted to identify myself from everyone else.
is there a version 3.0 though? the one who develops outside the walls of these stifling waters? i see it as the final development. the one where i am comfortable with myself and doing the things i love to do.
it's easy to get caught up in day-to-day activities, especially the happy rut... forgetting that you were put on this earth to make a difference. there is something to be said about stepping out of your comfort zone. cliche as that sounds.
and it has become too comfortable. yet again.
Learn To Fly by Foo Fighters |
posted by maldita @ 1:46 PM
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