| Monday, September 29, 2003 |
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I actually started making an artwork last night...i don't know how to call it - painting? but i'm not using paint. drawing? but it's not a sketch...well anyway, it's my pen&ink pointillism artwork. I got inspired last night before i went out to watch Sound for their last performance in Dish. I never start with a real idea of the complete work but have my thesis in mind. So every few minutes I come across a new idea and just keep adding elements to it. Very therapeutic and good for meditation.
Last night had fun too. wasn't planning to go out (as usual) but got a call from an old friend Martin if i wanted to catch a few drinks and watch Sound. Very tempting...and i don't think i've ever hung out with Martin, well not in the last 13 or so years. We actually got to talking that I met him when i was 12 years old. Can you believe that? he also gave me a few ideas on where to get work after i'm done with my MBA that will allow me to travel A LOT! i'm still excited at the idea of going to Spain this Christmas...hope it pushes through. Basta, when i get my first paycheck i plan to get away at least once every three months...there's just so many places i want to go to.
Btw, did you know that money in Laos is called "Kip"? so there are comments like "Kip the change" bwahahaha! stupid i know but it sounds better in person than when you read it...man, so many things to do today. And have to go to my mom's art exhibit later. Ladeedaaa...i'm still in a haze... |
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Part 2 - Baguio entries
written Sept. 24, 2003 4:35pm
Tuesday morning was absolutely refreshing. I woke up early because I wanted to enjoy the whole place and not waste it. We stayed in AIM in baguio – basically a hotel with a case room. You walk out the lobby and you’re greeted by the field of pine trees and to the distant right is the whole golf course of John Hay. I walked to Starbucks which is right next door to grab a cuppa and chat with some other classmates getting their breakfast while reading the cases for the day. The air is just so clean and refreshing, it gets you really energized. Somehow, airconditioning makes me sleepy, but here I want to walk around some more or just sit back and take it all in.
At night we stayed in Vince’s house which is a few minutes away. We did the groceries during the afternoon so that Joy, Willyn and I could cook the boys a yummy dinner. The guys took charge of the barbecue chicken outside while us chicks made the spicy tuna rice, buttered corn, sautéed mushrooms and adobo flakes inside the kitchen. Aris also helped cook and the other guys helped with the other different tasks. Anton was in charge of making our drinks (alcoholic or otherwise) while we slaved over the stove and chopping board. Alex took charge of shooing the cat away from the two adjoining kitchens…etc. etc. Funny though, as soon as dinner was over, our teachers would have been pleased to see that everyone picked up a case to read. They were for the next day’s classes. Why? I guess our diligence is also already ingrained. Aside from that, Vince, Sagar and Anton spent the next couple of hours trying to build a fire in the fireplace. Relentless and dedicated to building the best addition to our baguio experience it finally started burning. We dropped the cases (including one set inside the fireplace), set the mood music, turned off the lights and toasted marshmallows and hotdogs…and added more alcohol to what had already been circulating...among other things ;)
And today…we finished our last classes and some are planning to go home to their families already. Dean Morato and Prof. Manikan arranged for a caterer to provide us with a good dinner later and I guess that’s where we will all get a chance to talk and relax (without anything to read for the next day). The whole batch will be leaving tomorrow around noon but I’m extending with the boys till Friday so I can hopefully get all the pasalubong shopping done and with one more additional day I will maybe, just maybe… forget the boy I miss in manila.
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| Sunday, September 28, 2003 |
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Part 1 - Baguio entries
Actually written on September 24, 2003 4:35 PM
I have just rekindled my love for Baguio. We left at around past 4am last Monday morning. I was supposed to leave with the bus at 5:30am but went through a very distressful night. I went through so many personal issues and emotions that I couldn’t get any sleep. So I called my ever-faithful friends: Aris, Vince and Alex. They were leaving at around 4am and managed to make some space for me at the last minute. As the trip went on (we arrived at around 11am in Baguio) I knew I made the right decision. Alex had the other boys in the van, Boyet, Sagar, Mike, Pol, Gani and Fred. I rode with Vince, Alex and JV in the car. I also realized that my friends are such sweet and caring people. They are both maalaga and malambing. I usually find only one of those traits with other guys but with them, they sincerely and consistently show both. And I see it in the little things. Not major efforts, it’s just innate. I had to explain to Pia and Ria why I rode with the guys instead of with them on the bus – not just because I had to leave early but because these guys are really my pillars of strength. Especially since my recent issue had to do with a guy. And when I say “recent”…well let’s just say I had to deal with the issue at 3:30am. Just 30 minutes before we departed. If not for these friends’ support, hugs and acknowledgement that my decision was the right thing to do…I would probably be crying for the next few hours…or days.
Oh but let’s go to the event of the day…just as we reached Tarlac, three of us woke from our slumber just around 5 seconds before we caught sight of an accident on the road. In a split second we recognized one guy walking around the site…it was our classmate, Jerome. We immediately pulled over and noticed that there were around 3 of our friends’ cars around the truck that hit a post and tilted on the side of the road. It had hit their van and a man was pinned inside. It took around an hour to get him out, and everyone tried to contribute. We all felt somewhat responsible for the man…this is where I saw the unity of our batch. Everyone’s phones were ringing, alerting everyone in the bus and the other cars so that we could all help. You would also have seen the maturity and presence of mind that some of the guys had. You realize that all the Emotional Intelligence that AIM had been trying to drill into our heads was really already ingrained. And it did not take some major corporate dilemma for you to discover it. It had to be a very sensitive, moral and human event. Our dean and teachers who had taken their own cars were also alerted, but it was noticeable that they did not need to do much. The students were independent and responsible enough to handle it all but they were just informed of what everyone was already doing. Some people took pictures for the police report etc., they went to the precinct to file the accident, others accompanied the man to the hospital, others took extra passengers. I never told anyone during the trip but this all brought a tear to my eye. I was so proud of my friends and classmates. I can’t help but admire them so much.
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| posted by maldita @ 11:01 AM
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| Sunday, September 21, 2003 |
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Karl: you'll be ok marge. things will turn out fine. As long as you try to do the right thing instead of just doing what you want.
Jepong: That's the problem with us. We do the things we want all the time. We're stubborn.
kick...kick...kick...still kicking myself...
i have a week in Baguio to figure out how to do the right thing. I already know what it is. Now if i can only find the courage. |
| posted by maldita @ 6:31 AM
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Remember in the movie Someone Like You when Ray tells Kate he'll call her on New Year's and she waits the whole night for nothing? Well, what do you know...same thing happened to me last night. So how many times has this been already? and yet stupid ol me always gives him another chance. Of course, I came up with tons of excuses last night...and it all boils down to me kicking myself in the ass for being so dumb and relentless. And I am supposed to be smart!?
I went to meet debbie, chris and trika in Greenbelt for a few drinks. Later on, Edmond, Miggy and Migs came by. Also Abba, Antoine, Gabe...Was thinking of sticking to the red wine but ended up having currant 7s, weng-weng and lychee martini. I was pretty buzzed by around 1:30am when i gave up on checking my phone every 5 mins. Actually it did keep blipping with messages but only from friends. Got a call from a guy who i was thinking had potential but i didn't have the strength to meet up anymore. so i just said to resked. Besides, i was feeling kinda down by then.
Btw, i just noticed that i am surrounded by Scorpio Men. (read previous entry on Scorpio Bastard)...both friends and bastards. There's K,T,M,C and R. Hmm very interesting. It's as if i'm being tempted by the worst kind of men from all angles yet am still being kept in balance by my friends giving me advice. Not that i ever follow it. Stupid me. Kick...kick...kick...blam! |
| posted by maldita @ 1:15 AM
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| Friday, September 19, 2003 |
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had an unexpected ego boost. it's ironic since it happened early this morning, while my eyes were still fresh from my slumber (meaning concealer wouldn't be much help) and in the grocery! i thought this only happened in american comic strips or the movies. but anyway, i was buying some baking ingredients for a little "project" and this girl asked me for some help picking out some blueberries. then she introduced me to her brother (wow nice/cute guy alert!) and we had a short chat. Later on he found me again in the gourmet/health section as i was buying my daily supply of non-fat granola bars heehee...but the shy girl in me surfaced and i had to cut our talk short. haaay...this shy persona keeps coming up out of nowhere. maaan...
anyway, i found out yesterday that a "bastard" from my past will be coming to baguio also. half of me thinks there's nothing to worry about since it's been ages since our 1-year on-and-off non-commitment. hmm can't believe i put up with his bullshit for that long. you'd think i would've learned my lesson by now...But another side of me is worried that he'll try some flowery words and charm techniques under his inebriated state. I guess i'll just hide in the girls' bedroom with my friends :D
bummer we'll be cutting our trip short for a day. but hey, it'll still be great! wednesday night will be a dinner party with the whole batch and then thursday night will be our own shindig in vince's house. yahooooo...can't wait to get out of the city! though i would prefer going to the beach instead. when i get back i'll buy a new 2-piece suit...positive thinking! |
| posted by maldita @ 9:57 PM
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Too bad a lot of people are sick tonight. i kinda feel the bug also but i think i'm still going out tonight. Maybe i can just call it an early night since i'll be going to sanctum tomorrow anyway.
what's wierder is i have a friggin toothache! which is giving me a headache! this is definitely not good. I think i ate something too cold that made it hurt or something. hmmm i wonder if alcohol will help it feel better. hehe...
a sure sign that i am going to get sick is when i don't have an appetite. I have no plans of eating dinner anymore. actually the thought is making me nauseous already. wieeeeeeerd! i've always been wierd but now it's reaching a higher level.
I'm excited to go to baguio next week. Aside from the classes and the dinner parties with the whole batch, i'm looking for ward to the yoga classes and photography lecture also! Prof. Morato said that he's going to focus on the inspiration and creativity aspect of photography. Aaaah with the beauty of baguio! this was a really great idea. I just hope i packed all the stuff i need. I even got two reams of cigarettes for all my buddies. wanna bet that won't last the whole week? hehe |
| posted by maldita @ 5:26 AM
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how come when i put on mascara my mouth is slightly open?
but when i am trying to put thread through a needle, i bite my lip?
kinda mundane, but i just thought i'd ask...i did both things today and kinda noticed them. hmmm |
| posted by maldita @ 5:19 AM
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| Thursday, September 18, 2003 |
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i'm watching the Fabulous Baker Boys...
I can't imagine that hot Jack Baker in this movie is the same actor (Jeff Bridges) who played the nerdy guy in The Mirror Has Two Faces. There are so many good scenes in this movie. I like the one where they're dancing on the terrace. He just plays everything so cool and smooth.
Ok remember this scene where its the morning after...in his apartment... He's as cold as ice while she's kinda looking for some sign that he needs her. or wants her to stay. But he doesn't give it. After their last gig, she calls him a coward. And she leaves.
Ironically, her leaving shakes things up in his life. I should be so lucky. |
| posted by maldita @ 5:03 AM
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Went out with an old friend last night. Karl and his friend Leo. Just had drinks in Temple bec. there's no crowd, you can find a table, you can smoke upstairs and good chill out music. karl was telling me about "the lounge" which is basically a place in his house where there's a ton of lamps, lounge music and of course, alcohol. Can't wait to drop by one of these days.
It was so wierd that after three arctic strawberries i got major palpitations.
this seems to happen only when i drink vodka. but i'm just a sucker for punishment... |
| posted by maldita @ 12:56 AM
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| Wednesday, September 17, 2003 |
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friendster addict! i have to stop this stupid thing...but everytime i have some old long-lost friend adding me to their list, i'm hooked all over again!
i saw my good friend Grace in school today. we had a blast just catching up with what's been happening for the past 4 months. didn't realize a lot has already happened...
i have this bad habit lately...i come home, take a shower, have dinnerhave a cigarette, watch tv or surf the net then fall asleep. sounds normal? not when this all happens before 9pm. not to me anyway. and my study time isn't included in it! and trust me, the last thing you want to do is go to class the next day unprepared. especially when your teacher has strong intuition and can sense fear a mile away. definitely not good. so anyway, since i sleep early, i end up waking up around 5am or something. so i go downstairs, have 2 cups of coffee, cigarette and read my cases for the day. oh but i'm still late for class. my panic attacks (maybe it's all the coffee) studying in the morning can't be healthy. |
| posted by maldita @ 4:23 AM
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| Tuesday, September 16, 2003 |
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I always wondered why coffee and cigarettes go together:
After drinking a cup of coffee, the caffeine will have reached all your body tissues in 5 minutes and will reach its highest level in 30 to 60 minutes – that’s when you’ll feel its effect the strongest. After about 3 -6 hours, you will have eliminated 50% of the caffeine. However active levels of caffeine will still be in your body for 10 – 15 hours after. That should give you an idea of how long before bedtime you should have your last cuppa’ joe. (Heavy smokers get rid of the caffeine twice as fast. Which also explains why they need to take in twice the amount of caffeine to feel the same effects as non-smokers.)
- from Figaro Coffee Company |
| posted by maldita @ 5:14 PM
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| Monday, September 15, 2003 |
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i spent the whole afternoon lugging my butt around makati...i am going to buy myself a digital camera! finally! margie is giving in and joining the realm of the digital demons! haha...
but then i found myself in a dilemma...Automatic Center was out of stock. all branches. Then i went to the Sony store in greenbelt and they only had one left. but instead of the 2 megapixels that i wanted, they only had the 1.3mpixels. and the only product available was the display. would you buy a display model? i didn't think so. it was around 10k. then after going to around 3 more stores in glorietta and greenbelt (i went back and forth, thank God i don't drive but my feet are STILL killing me) i found one more piece in Electroworld. But it was 13k. oh and both the display model and the electroworld one were only 1.3megapix...now 13k is the actual price of the 2megapix. so i'm left with n-o-t-h-i-n-g! :(
i am now resorting to buying it online. why didn't i think of this before? now i'm going to get this:
i like simple stuff. the less frills the better. for anything, actually.
oh wait! i also got this one-layer black chiffon top from Theme. Can't wait to wear that this weekend! yipee! |
| posted by maldita @ 6:34 AM
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| Saturday, September 13, 2003 |
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i was once compared to another girl...she was called stable. i think you can decipher what I was called...what i don't understand is i never gave the impression otherwise. everyone knows it from the start. I don't say i'm the easiest person to be with. Although i can say you'll never be bored. there's always SOME form of excitement - whether stupid, enticing or crazy. i never asked you to stay with me. whatever misconceptions you had are all your fault. so why am i being punished? i never asked you to come into my life...you started it by asking me out...again and again...
i have now dubbed thee Bubble Bastard. Thanks to the blog of The Mad Dater for the idea of creating a monicker...
The bubble bastard will blow up your bubble (actually it's more like balloon but bubble sounds better) of hope and love. whenever it starts to get smaller he'll blow it up some more with words of care, consideration, thought and decency. Just when you are about to decide to just let all the air out yourself and throw the empty balloon away, he comes back to blow it up bigger to make you keep him. Then just when it gets big enough, he gets a pin and pops it. Thanks for nothing. Why couldn't you just have left me alone to let all the air out myself? because you have fun seeing balloons pop? leaving me like a stupid child crying about it... |
| posted by maldita @ 9:54 PM
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Did i mention earlier that my dad gave me a book (he meant to be funny) called "How to spot a bastard by his star sign"? well, it was right on the dot. Let me give you a sneak preview:
The Scorpio bastard:
You know the story- boy meets girl. boy tortures girl because of a silly of misunderstandings and bec. he enjoys it. girl becomes psychological wreck. boy sweeps girl into his arms and mumbles something about undying love. (he has to sweep her into his arms bec. by this stage the poor woman has completely fallen apart.)
Once a scorpio bastard arrives, well there's nothing a like a spot of good old-fashioned bodice ripping to get things started. Just swoon gracefully into his arms and let him have his way with you. Then have your head examined. The strong silent type is what you should look for when purchasing major appliances. These are desirable attributes in a washing machine, not in a man. And we guarantee you won't enjoy them in Scorpio.
Scorpio will manipulate you into exactly what he wants you to be. Then he'll lose respect for you since you're so easily manipulated. Then he'll start looking around for someone else to manipulate. This is when you should start looking around too - for reputable psychiatric help. because in the midst of torturing you, scorpio will suddenly turn into a model of gentleness and consideration. Don't be fooled. It's just part of the callous game he's playing with your mental and emotional health.
The reason scorpio insipres such obsessive behavior is because he is so obsessive himself - about sex. He thinks about it twice as much as other men, which basically means its on his mind all the time. Which makes him a complete pervert. Which for some strange reason makes women think he's sexy. WHich therefore means he really can't hep having sex with any woman who'll let him.
You can't win. You will never, ever win. Scorpio won't let you. And you can't leave, as he won't let you do that either. All you can do is keep going to therapy and continue to blame yourself. After all, you're the crazy, codependent one with a thing for sadistic bastards.
I chose this sign since I AM a scorpio so i'm wondering whether all that it says is true. Well i think the stuff about mind games is true. Maybe the perversion and all that other shit is just meant for the men. I read all the other signs and i think the best out of all the bastards is Cancer. His only major flaw seems to be his love for his mother. Hey that's tolerable right? hehe. Well i like the sarcastic wit of the authors...who are brit by the way. yeah you can call them bitter brit bitches but the book is good for a few laughs...
ok since i've had two (or is three?) taurean ex-boyfriends lets go there...
The Taurus bastard:
As you stand tall and point to our Mary, Mother of God while waving your diploma in astrophysics, your degree in visual arts, and your masters in biblical communications under his nose, he'll still insist you don't know what you're talking about. As far as Taurus is concerned, you're completely incapable of saying or doing anything yourself. That's where he comes in. Again.
Paradoxically, when he's not running and therefore ruining your life for you, the Taurus bastard is busy being chronically lazy.. When it comes to doing things for himself he won't move unless he has to. If he lives by himself, don't be ecstatic when he invited you over to his place. It'll look like a bomb's hit it, and this may very well be the case if he still lives in that bunker in Berlin. (did you know that Hitler was a Taurus?)
When Taurus has a gripe about something, you will never, ever hear the end of it. On and on and on he'll go (blames everyone but himself) - he got rejected from art school, his mother didn't love him, from the weed he smoked years ago, his German Shepherd got run over (repeat as often as you like for maximum desired effect). |
| posted by maldita @ 7:48 PM
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| Friday, September 12, 2003 |
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I woke up this morning crying. the last time i did that was my first breakup with joey (yeah he broke up with me twice but the second time i was already numb) and now i'm feeling pain again for someone else. But i asked for this...I asked God for this sign. And if i got it I'd know that it's time to move on. Even with a sort of "press release" a few days ago, i guess i was not prepared and still expecting the opposite. Well anyway, i got the sign, loud and clear. i was trying to ignore it for a couple of days but having a dream about him last night and waking up crying with that huge lump in my chest (all those who've gotten their heart broken know what the hell i'm talking about) and you know that if you let go of that lump, all those tears come pouring out.
I was actually lying in bed around 8:30am crying and tugging at my blanket. With the radio playing in the background, i started flicking the stations with the remote to change the songs. I heard two songs this morning that describes what i feel. I had a hard time choosing which one to put here...
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
From the very first time I rest my eyes on you, boy,My heart says follow through.
But I know, now, that I'm way down on your line,But the waiting feel is fine
So don't treat me like a puppet on a string,'Cause I know I have to do my thing.
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb;
I wanna know when you're gonna come
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love,
'Cause if summer is here, I'm still waiting there;
Winter is here, And I'm still waiting there.
Like I said:
It's been three years (days?weeks?) since I'm knockin' on your door,
And I still can knock some more:
Ooh boy, ooh boy, is it feasible?
I wanna know now, for I to knock some more.
Ya see, in life I know there's lots of grief,
But your love is my relief:
Tears in my eyes burn - tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waiting - while I'm waiting for my turn,
See!
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
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| posted by maldita @ 6:25 PM
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| Wednesday, September 10, 2003 |
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i am now a big fan of Sugarfree...i always liked songs in tagalog because i thought they were more "lambing" and the sound of the words gave the emotions more depth...but i only recently heard their other songs aside from Mariposa and they are excellent! the latest pinoy album i bought of similar music was the Itchyworms (hmm add Spongecola to that list and you got a lot of ateneans! wonder why...)
anyway, new fave song: Burnout by Sugarfree
O wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
Wag mo akong kulitin, wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo ako rin ay nagbago
Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali
O kay tagal din kitang minahal
Kung iisipin mo di naman dati ganito
Teka muna lang, kelan tayo nailing?
Kung iisipin mo, di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay
O kay tagal din kita minahal
Tinatawag kita sinusuyo kita
Di mo man marinig, di mo man madama
O kay tagal din kitang mamahalin |
| posted by maldita @ 10:14 AM
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Tim Tayag has updated his site. He has a new
animation called "Love Motel".
please check it out. (thanks for the link Dino!) love motel
and i'm sooooo delighted my archives work now! yahooooo!then again you can now see my old bitter and bitchy posts! hehe |
| posted by maldita @ 6:25 AM
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found this on zen-lunatic.com: The Official Website of Jack Kerouac.
Just heard that his original manuscript of "On The Road", which is actually a 120-foot scroll, has been auctioned off for $2.2M. That is the most that has ever been paid for a literary piece. You HAVE to read this book. This is from the man who created the movement and way of life known as the BEAT GENERATION.
An excerpt from the book (although if you see the manuscript, he did not have paragraphs. just a continuous stream of consciousness):
"...But we forgot that and headed straight for North Clark Street, after a spin in the Loop, to see the hootchy-kootchy joints and hear the bop. And what a night it was.
'Oh, man,' said Dean to me as we stood in front of a bar, 'dig the street of life, the Chinamen that cut by in Chicago. What a weird town--wow, and that woman in that window up there, just looking down with her big breasts hanging from her nightgown, big wide eyes. Whee. Sal, we gotta go and never stop going till we get there."
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| Tuesday, September 09, 2003 |
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I think i'm juggling too many things at once...all because of my goal to become a master in multi-tasking. not an easy feat at all. Let's see, there's the huge amount of reading for classes, the management of the SA store which is in the verge of restructuring and re-organization (MBA teaches you all these fancy words), MRR/thesis proposal and research and of course, maintaining a sense of balance with some semblance of a social life. hehe...my room is such a mess I hardly have time to organize all my files! any few minutes i can muster i use up to take a shower, eat and sleep. Especially sleep! oh yeah let's not forget TV and internet. Aaaah you can really see the necessities in life!
For example, my friend was just telling me that she moved into her new apartment a few weeks ago. Over our cups of cappuccino she proceeded to tell us about her new interest in ironing clothes, buying appliances/furniture and doing the grocery shopping. Then i asked her, what can't you live without? what is the first company you called to have something installed in your place? She said: CABLE TV! Hands down. I on the other hand would have installed my internet access first. hehe...(especially with my new addiction to friendster! almost have 100 friends...i'm so touched. sniff. and it's so nice to be located and remembered by classmates from all the way back in grade school! i am still amazed at this network.)
...so anyway, ever think about it? what would you have installed first? |
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| Monday, September 08, 2003 |
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To commemorate the new blog title and mindset of the beat gen and subculture...here's the groove for you: best done with a black turtleneck, goatee while being armed with a bongo and really cool incense.
Oh Lord, Good God, the Omni present Groovy One
I bid thee to forgive us
For if we are the sum of all that we own
Then take pity on us
For we amount to zilch.
Yes all Seeing One, beat us silly
WIth a big willy nilly (whatever)
That which we own, we take not with us
When the heavens claim their own
but hell, we try. (forgive that phrase)
Gucci, Mucci, Mambo Jambo, we collect
Like a starved glutton let loose at a buffet
forgive us, for we think by buying class, we become class
It's crass.
Oh beatmaster, with the moves so slick
Tell me, Oh Mighty One, what makes you tick?
For if I am made in your mould, how can i be so cheap
As not to know right from wrong, and to speak with a voice so deep
I besiege thee to look upon us with pity
For we forget the nitty gritty
Of what it means to be human, to care and to love
Instead, Oh Good One, we roast thy dove
in the name of Bilateral Agreements and Most Favoured Nation Status
I know, you think it's so tasteless
Show us the way, make us see
That really, to live is just to be
Humble and kind
So we bind
As one.
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| Sunday, September 07, 2003 |
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am in a bitchy mood. don't really know why. have been for the past two weeks. friends have noticed it. the slightest provocation can lead me to punch you in the face or more subtley lash out with very harsh words. last week a friend pinched me in the waist to make me lambing but it hurt so much i literally almost kicked his face. didn't even know i could kick that high. good thing he avoided it just in time. i know, that's bad. been trying to keep it in check though. maybe its the lack of sleep. the case packs have been too much. or maybe its just that time of the month. thought a trip to the parlor last saturday would get me to relax but apparently not.
but had fun last night though. trika and ane came over around 8:30, we just had dinner at home and discussed the usual: work, school, date possibilities, clothes etc. i'm really proud of both of them for different reasons. Trika, for being such a strong person who can handle any situation with so much objectivity and perspective. Ane, for her accomplishments at work. i only just found out that she is already a senior marketing manager, at such a young age. she works so hard but she's so good at what she does and really loves it. Anyway, after all the primping and watching some selected scenes of Someone Like You and 40days and 40 nights (these girls are still fighting as to which one of them is Josh Hartnett's first wife) we skidaddled to Greenbelt 3. It was really relaxing, and surprising given the location we chose. not many people which was good. no smell or feel of increasing sweat from all the bodies shuffling around. I asked Jin to join us and had a blast with all the funny kwentos. that's what's great about new acquaintances, you have new stories and jokes and what not. I disappeared for a while bec. bumped into Dondi and GP who dragged me to 12 where i saw so many old buddies, some who just came back from the states and were really delighted to see me out. i finally pulled away to go back to my group and we had coffee and more chit-chat in Bizu. oh and finally tried the sinful chocolate cakes. oh man. this week starts the diet again.
can't believe its september already. how fast time flies. end of the month our whole class will be going to baguio for our last week of classes to be conducted there. wonder if i'll have enough money for all the shopping and travelling around. hoping to stay an extra weekend.
am currently enjoying the new compilation MP3 cd i made. all the songs i want are in it and have been listening to it for the past few hours.
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| posted by maldita @ 10:08 AM
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| Thursday, September 04, 2003 |
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I'm sure you've all heard (and seen) the controversial liplock between christina aguilera, britney and madonna it the recent VMAs...hey, it got your attention right? i think that was the main objective and they succeeded! i've received a number of emails from friends who've sent me the pictures, the video clips, the edited close ups etc. etc. but i couldn't help noticing two things:
1. christina's whole new look - she looks like a black woman! or at least trying! that is such a bad shade of self-tanner on her body which has noticably added a few pounds (to those who don't know, jlo uses that tanning thing to hide any stretch marks on butt and legs) and that hair! ugh! here are the black women going to great lengths to straighten their hair and here's christina trying to get a really messy afro going!
2. britney's battery pack - the purpose of this supposed battery pack is either to connect a lapel microphone or for earphones. seems as if ms. britney is the only one among the two who cannot really sing live and needs much assistance!
Madonna...well she looks good and is still one of the best performers (i didn't say singer) in the biz! :)
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| posted by maldita @ 10:26 AM
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